Willing to Drown?
A good friend has a saying: “You don’t change personalities when you meet Jesus. You just change the object of your affection.” I’d always figured that didn’t apply to me because, really, I didn’t think I had much of a personality before I met Jesus. I pretty much just spent my time trying to escape life. But after sharing that concept with someone else, I’ve started realizing how true it is, even in my life. I’ve always been looking to drown. Life happens; and when it’s happened to me, I’ve had no good ways to handle it. My solution was to disappear any way I could. So when I started looking for God, that was my starting place. Although I had no knowledge of the Holy Spirit or the presence of God, when I began experiencing these things, throwing myself entirely into Him was all I knew to do. I don’t know how to do this halfway. I don’t know how to want just some of God, part of His Kingdom, a little bit of Jesus. If in the past I spent my money on escape routes – was jealo...