Conversations with God

Thinking this morning about my job teaching preschool children with various disabilities and challenges. I love it, yet it seems lately all I see are my mistakes and failures. I so badly want others to see how big our God is – how He heals, and also how He enables people to handle everything   that gets thrown their way. I suppose in my mind I’ve had a picture of a polished super-woman who never gets flustered or upset. Someone who always has it all together, who handles every challenging situation or behavior with exactly the right response every single time, and who has every piece of paperwork in order and on time. That ain’t me. No matter how hard I try. As I thought about it, God surprised me. “Think about David,” He said. “David was a shepherd. I elevated him to be king. Do you think he knew how to do that? He wasn’t perfect. He made mistakes. But I chose him because he chose Me, which made him a safer choice than his brothers. “So, no, David didn’t ...

I was thinking about healing the other day. Actually, as a special education teacher, I think about healing every day. God seemed to be smiling at me as I was thinking about different disorders and disabilities. It was as if He were asking, “Why are you making this complicated?” I thought about it. To most of us, healing is a really big deal. We hope for it, but are almost surprised if it actually happens. It seems a rarity that excites us and makes us nervous at the same time, wondering if it will happen again. It occurred to me – maybe my focus was in the wrong place. The times I’ve seen healing happen in front of me, I’ve been focused on Jesus, not healing. He told me something to do or say, and I did it. My attention was on obeying and pleasing Him, not on the result. I have to remember God isn’t going to measure the success of my walk with Him by how many people get healed. I think He’ll be looking at how much of my heart I gave Him, how much time, how much of...