You are Here

Yes, I knew from the beginning that you'd be here. No, not just when you surrendered to Me in 2006; I knew it when I formed you. I planned a safe place for you to come for healing. I'm so glad you found it and said Yes.

It's not over. There is more to come, but you have found the rhythm now. No, I haven't given you all the answers you seek, but you're learning to trust Me for real now. No, it isn't all smooth and easy, but you're clinging to Me and making Me your anchor. 

No, I'm not angry at you and I'll repeat it as often as you need Me to. This isn't punishment, and no, you haven't failed. You want all the answers, but that's not always really what you need. I.am.HERE. Whether you think you should be here or not, if you think you should be or do or know or what - I. Am. Here. With you. I haven't left, I'm not angry, and I'm not sitting up here comparing you to some idealized version of yourself I was hoping for instead. When will My opinion of you become weightier than that of others'? You're learning you don't always have to be on guard. So then, as you lessen their power over you, allow Mine to increase. 

What you've been doing isn't wrong. You're not in trouble. I'm not angry. I'm not even disappointed. HEAL. Are your worries about money really about money, or a way to stop midway through the process? I know your heart. I know everything about you, even the things you don't acknowledge to Me because you believe you aren't supposed to. 

I'm not God in a box; I won't always do things the way you expect. That doesn't mean it will be bad or scary. That's something we're working on - the unknown isn't dangerous just because it's unknown. Not pleasing everyone doesn't mean you're going to be hurt again. It feels fragile and scary, I know. You've retreated into yourself because you're afraid. I know that and I can still see you. It's ok. I'm not leaving. I can see further than you. I know how this ends. I know you're going to be okay. So I'm not scared or upset or angry or disappointed or anything else. I'm waiting. Not in a bad way. I'm waiting because I'm willing and excited for how this works out. 

You worry about a lot of things that aren't real, people's opinions, etc. Let Me take that. Over and over again if needed. Let Me determine the outcomes - and don't try to force it before its time. Let Me set the pace. When you do that, it's not responsible, it's control. 💜 And then it won't be finished properly.

What do you tell people? Whatever you want. It's not about them, it's about you - you healing, not your fear of their opinion. 

I like it when you smile in the storm - because you've learned that it's worth it. You've learned even when it hurts like hell, it doesn't last forever, even when it feels like it. You've learned it's not all about your feelings, and that I'm bigger and more stable than anything else. 

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