The Wandering Path

“Lord, You know everything there is to know about me”

What?! Even…???

“You perceive every movement of my heart and soul,

and You understand my every thought before it even enters my mind.”

Why would You even want to do that? I don’t even want to do that…

“You are so intimately aware of me, Lord.

You read my heart like and open book,

and You know all the words I’m about to speak before I even start a sentence.”

So You know everything?

And yet You still…

“You know every step I will take before the journey even begins.

You’ve gone into the future to prepare the way,

and in kindness You follow behind me to spare me from the harm of my past.”

Oh, wow. That’s deep.

You don’t just know the past, but also the future…

“This is just too wonderful, deep, and incomprehensible.

Your understanding of me brings me wonder and strength.”

So, if You understand everything about me,

Maybe I don’t have to…?

“Where could I go from Your Spirit?

Where could I run and hide from Your face?

Heaven, death, shining dawn or radiant sunset—

Wherever I go Your hand will guide me,

Your strength will empower me.”

Happy, sad, manic, depressed, hopeful, hopeless—

None of them are places that You cannot reach.

“It’s impossible to disappear from You

or ask the darkness to hide me,

for Your presence is everywhere

bringing light into my night.”

So even anxiety or panic

Even dissociated away from my own awareness…

“God, I invite Your searching gaze into my heart.

Examine me through and through;

find out everything that may be hidden within me.”

I think I want this. It sounds right and good.

“See if there’s any path of pain I’m walking on,

and lead me back to Your glorious, everlasting ways—

the path that brings me back to You.”

Yes, I definitely want this.

I want You.

Know me,

Find me,

Save me,

Keep me

Home with You.

{inspired by Psalm 139, TPT}